Why Peigi is pro-life

"To behold the beauty of the Lord...."
I'm alive. It's one of the things that makes me pro-life. Call it enlightened self interest.

I haven't always loved Life the way I do now. Jesus himself said that HE is the Way, the Truth and the Life. It follows then to love life is to love Jesus, and not only did I not love Life, I did not love Truth or His Way either.

I thought I loved life, when I was in college in my early twenties. I would party some, but my favorite thing was to find someone to have sex with. I didn't realize the huge difference in 'having sex' and 'making love'. Love, was always my dream. A loving husband, a loving family is what I always wanted, and I tried to have everything MY way.

Having sex wasn't love, but it was fun, and it made me have happy feelings between the bouts of rejection and depressing guilt and inner filthiness, I felt so frequently.

But when the sex actually led to being pregnant, my happy bubble burst with the reality, that the man I was with had no desire to be my husband, or raise a baby with me. CRAP! They like to say that "Truth Hurts", but that's a false saying, since what hurt was my resistance to the truth, and accepting the truth finally gave me some comfort and clarity.

Precious little and short lived that it was, since the two of us also came to agree that he would take me to have an abortion at a clinic near the airport in Seattle. Here another falsehood perpetrated by haters of Life, came to light. Some kind of painless procedure was supposed to take place, but when everything was said and done, the pain from convulsize cramping was so excruciating, the man and I spent 6 hours in a parking lot near the water, while all I could do was writhe in agony on the asphalt, and he tried to stay and keep me company.

Two weeks later I was in the small hospital in Ellensburg where a kindly old doctor had me admitted for what first appeared to be peritonitis. Within a short time they called my dad to tell him I might not be alive much longer, and brought me into surgery, to try and stem the flow of internal bleeding coming from a broken fallopian tube.

I had had an ectopic pregnancy, a 'tubal pregnancy'. The abortion accomplished nothing, cost me alot of money, damn near killed me, and now I would be sterile because the tube had to be tied off. Actually both did , as I was told because one tube appeared to just be bleeding sympathetically, but as profusely as the one the baby was in, so to save my life, both tubes were tied.

Thanks for following my story this far. Just have a little more to add...

The little I add, is the BIGGEST most important part....
My ways did not change immediately. I still had many other things to suffer through, but in the middle of one of those times, a man in a library asked me about what I knew about Jesus, and how His blood would atone for my sins.

Took me awhile, but I finally got it! Thank God! And when I did my inner compass changed. It was like it was finally magnetized to point to True North! Though outwardly many things remained very hard, and some got worse. Ask me sometime, and I will tell you the long version of the story.

But most important is that I am a Forgiven person. I have eternal Life to look forward to. I like to share, and now have something of value I really CAN share with other people. Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. PLEASE ask me more about that fact! "God is Love" and He loves you.

"We love Him, because He first loved us".

And you should know that, following His mercies extended to me, God also made me the proud mother of two daughters I have adopted, and am also raising my niece. To top it all off, I am married to wonderful man who loves Life, loves Jesus, loves the Truth and loves me.

I hope you will love, love beauty, love a helpless baby and mother more from this story. I hope you will come to love Jesus, the author of Life.